Not settling for Less

I have lived my life my way

Thats the only way I can be

Maybe its selfish, you might think

But atleast I know who I am

And atleast I know what I want

And when I do something

Its with all my heart

There is absolutely no doubt.

Yes, I want to rule the world

But I do not want to be lonely

I do not want to be without a family

I do want a place that I can call home

Why cant I have it all? I question

The good is mine

The bad I own

The ugly truth I rule

And there are some things

That I rather not share

Because its mine

Because its me

And thats also the real reason why

Its so difficult to stick with me

I thought it would be ok

That I would be just fine

The warrior in me would find a way

And victory will be mine

But suddenly I find my mortality mocking me

"So you want to rule the world" she says

"But what if there is nothing left of you tomorrow?"

"What if you leave without a trace"?

And I find myself paralyzed

Admist the deafening tick tock of my clock

I cannot hear the sound of my voice

Maybe nothing is worth it

Whatever I believed in was a mirage

Maybe I should settle for whatever comes my way

But admist all this pandemonium thats runs in my head

I hear a voice thats tells me to look beyond the walls

I hear her say

" Baby girl, you have come such a long way,

And you have such a long long way to go,

The choices you make today,

Will define your tomorrow.

So stay still for a while,

And feel with your head.

Remember there was a time it was so dark,

But you still found your way.

There was no-one with you

But you were never scared to walk alone

You knew when to walk away

Even when you loved it so much

Because you didnt want it to destroy your soul.

I know you have been alone for too long

And your soul needs a mate

The problem of being Alpha

Is that you are usually left alone

And sometimes strength can attract weakness

And weakness can never walk the distance with you

So its better that you travel this journey alone.

I know you miss the passion, the comfort and the togetherness

But maybe its time to get out of bed.

You are larger than life baby girl,

You can't be contained in a compartment

You need your space to grow.."

I find myself waking up from slumber

Yes its taken me some time

But I have finally got it

The eclipse of my insecurities is over

And I finally see the light

And admist this haze, I see me

And she's telling me to wait

She's telling me to not settle for less...