Mea Culpa

Never told you I was a saint

I have fallen,

I have broken

But I have risen from my ashes again.

You cant be really good,

If you have never tasted bad

I have been there,

I have done that,

I have evolved, why dont you understand?

I know you said nothing to me,

But I can see it in your eyes,

I feel the nails piercing my flesh

I know I am being crucified.

Never asked you to put me on a pedestal

I like my feet to be firm on the ground.

So its really not nice when I have to fall

I have walked on the dark side

Its not a pretty picture I understand

But that also is the reason

Why you think I am beautiful

Because I have seen life with these eyes.

I am the queen of darkness,

But I give birth to light

Sometimes to keep true love,

You have to fight.

I dont want to hide from you

The story of my life

Dont want you to fall

In love with an illusion

Thats simply not right

The truth is not comfortable,

It will never be

But if we learn to seek comfort in it

It will be real, don't you see?

I dont take your love for granted

I never have, I never will.

Good things in life are hard to find

So why should love be easy?

I work hard to be loved by you

But I am only human

And that makes me make mistakes

But I dont give up,

No, thats not me,

I pick up the pieces

And I try again

Until I get it right

But I need a hand

Because I cant do it by myself

It doesn't help that you choose to walk away

It makes me feel unloved and unwanted

And no one wants to feel that way

And I dont know if you want me to stay?

And I am not sure if you want to make this work?

Mea Culpa...

Is it my fault?

For wanting to get this right this time,

For wanting to try again?